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Just when I thought things were going well they take a nose dive. (warining, vent journal)
I've mentioned to friends in the past how I want to quit my current job and get a different, more settled job elsewhere (nothing wrong with the current job I've just realized its not for me). However, during the between transition it sucks because I'm still having to sign up for jobs I don't like and the folks are thinking of charging me rent now (cause lord knows I'm rolling in the money). I was able to use the dog (we got a puppy FYI, totally not ready for it but yes we now have a standard poodle) as an excuse to avoid work (stay home and look after him while folks are at work and sister at school) but I think that won't be as effective of an excuse much longer.
I've been having a bad sleep schedule as of late so I've been getting up later. So when a call came in for a job this morning, my sister answered and I asked her to deal with it. Thinking back this was a mistake as mom inquired and got mad when she found out I turned it down. Dad came home and they apparently had a fight which lead him to come down stairs and chew me out over it. He said I'm not making any progress and doing nothing with my life and "when am I going to start acting like an adult" or put my plans in motion for moving out.
I'm sorry, but how is this his or my mom's business, true I should have taken the call instead but don't yell at me for turning a job down. And more importantly, finding another job takes a hell of a lot of time and work, especially sense I don't want their help in doing so, so I'm sticking to my current job just to have some income. And as for moving out, I don't want to start looking for an apartment till I get a finalized job elsewhere (I don't want to move out only to have to move back in because it didn't work out).
Its so frustrating to think I finally got over this hurtle only for them to drag me right back in again. I hate how they keep expecting more and more out of me when I'm pretty happy were I'm at. I hate how I feel how I have no voice because every time I bring up a complaint or argue, they drag it up later on to through back in my face. And yet when I try to rebuttal them for doing serious wrong (they've illegally gone through my mail, taken over $3000 out of my bank account without my permission and attempted to meddle at my current job by going to the higher ups very minor issues) they get really defensive and say I have no right.
Seriously, if I had a alternative that wouldn't land me in a worse situation or unfairly put strain on the occupants, I'd have moved out already. I'm so sick of this treatment and its thanks to my friends in real life and on here that I haven't done something really stupid by now. But the minute a chance to get out of this place and better my life appears, I'm taking it: and damn it all they won't stop me.
I've been having a bad sleep schedule as of late so I've been getting up later. So when a call came in for a job this morning, my sister answered and I asked her to deal with it. Thinking back this was a mistake as mom inquired and got mad when she found out I turned it down. Dad came home and they apparently had a fight which lead him to come down stairs and chew me out over it. He said I'm not making any progress and doing nothing with my life and "when am I going to start acting like an adult" or put my plans in motion for moving out.
I'm sorry, but how is this his or my mom's business, true I should have taken the call instead but don't yell at me for turning a job down. And more importantly, finding another job takes a hell of a lot of time and work, especially sense I don't want their help in doing so, so I'm sticking to my current job just to have some income. And as for moving out, I don't want to start looking for an apartment till I get a finalized job elsewhere (I don't want to move out only to have to move back in because it didn't work out).
Its so frustrating to think I finally got over this hurtle only for them to drag me right back in again. I hate how they keep expecting more and more out of me when I'm pretty happy were I'm at. I hate how I feel how I have no voice because every time I bring up a complaint or argue, they drag it up later on to through back in my face. And yet when I try to rebuttal them for doing serious wrong (they've illegally gone through my mail, taken over $3000 out of my bank account without my permission and attempted to meddle at my current job by going to the higher ups very minor issues) they get really defensive and say I have no right.
Seriously, if I had a alternative that wouldn't land me in a worse situation or unfairly put strain on the occupants, I'd have moved out already. I'm so sick of this treatment and its thanks to my friends in real life and on here that I haven't done something really stupid by now. But the minute a chance to get out of this place and better my life appears, I'm taking it: and damn it all they won't stop me.
Stolen Art
Hey everybody. Serious post this time. Gemini30, a long time TLK creator and some one I respect, had some art stolen. If you could go check out her journal here: As well as share around what's happening it be much appreciated. Contact her if you need further instruction. Thanks.
BACK IN THE SADDLE AGAIN! WOOT!
All my close friends and watchers may have already realized this but I feel it's important to announce. I am indeed back and hopefully will remain so for the foreseeable future. Long story short my computer slowed to a crawl and eventually I couldn't even get the the main screen even when it started up. After that I asked about and looked at options and had to come to the final verdict of needing a new laptop. A little more research and advising later and I took the plunge and made the order. I was worried and fretted for most of the while (I checked the tracking order everyday at least) but luckily my order came several weeks sooner then intended. I was again worried about set up and everything needed for it but its seemed to be fine and well I was able to get it up and running along with come online last night. Sense then I've been happy to have a station to work on and be able to get in contact properly with every one (I had been using a phone to stay some what updated). So here
Voluntary Hiatus to Involuntary Hiatus
Okay! I can officially give you all a big old update on what the heck is going on officially. To start I had originally logged off for a bit to take a break from DA, get some stuff done, be away from drama and the like. At first it worked out well, I was getting A LOT done and the break was worth it even if I was unintentionally going back on now and again. I was expecting to come back on in July with work done and ready to be posted. But the future is like the ocean, seemingly calm but can turn turbulent and is very unpredictable, not always for your benefit. About mid way into June, my Desktop computer (which I do most of my work on) started acting weird. One day it's fine and the next day it was moving SLOW, I'm talking it took a hour for it restart and load onto. And that's not even mentioning how slow it was opening or moving files it take, 5-10 minutes for those things without accessing anything else like the interenet. I was very worried but as I'd seen similar activity from
About 2019 and 2020
Man what a year. Looking back very little was accomplished in my life, art or otherwise. But this time around it was because of a factor I couldn't do much about. Not if I wanted to reach certain aims in life. I have already gone over before what happened and what a horrible year it was so I hope only to move on. I'm very glad to say that 2019 is over and want to put it behind me as much as possible. Preferably treat most of it like it never happened. Good riddance!
So what's up and coming for 2020. Well I don't know. I have scattered plans and ideas but nothing concrete yet. I think I still am trying to get my feet back from under me and mo
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It's too bad you don't live near me, we have a large 3 bedroom apt and I actually want a room mate to help out with like the electric and small bills. Where are you at anyways? And I know how that shit is, my parents never stole my money but they did pressure me A LOT to do something with my life, where i'm just like. I just want to get an okay job and go from there? Kay? -.-